The lyric and my life..

A friend to ask me to find a poem that shows my feeling, and always have the great meaning to my life..Something that shows who i am..I know one...Its how i fell about life ..Every single lyric...Every single word..

The Greatest Love of all..

I believe the children are our future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be

Everybody searching for a hero
People need someone to look up to
I never found anyone who fulfill my needs
A lonely place to be
So I learned to depend on me

I decided long ago, never to walk in anyone's shadows
If I fail, if I succeed
At least I'll live as I believe

No matter what they take from me
They can't take away my dignity

Because the greatest love of all
Is happening to me
I found the greatest love of all
Inside of me

The greatest love of all
Is easy to achieve
Learning to love yourself
It is the greatest love of all

And if by chance, that special place
That you've been dreaming of
Leads you to a lonely place
Find your strength in love

All i want for Christmas...

Its a peaceful night tonight. No noisy sound from the neighbors or some mat rempit with their bike ..Just the sound of the water at the swimming pool beside my apartment..Peaceful...

December comes in few days, and so do my little prayer-will God give me the chance? In a few days, i will know, and everything will change. I really looking forward for that change in my life..and of course the good one :)


I had stop dreaming for other things to happen, and its weird to fell nothing now. Its feel like, i really don't care anymore.

  But God...i want this, uhm...maybe as Christmas present for me? He he he. I never quite for something that i really pray for-even how tough it was. Pleeeeeessseeee :D

i'll decorating my home with big Christmas tree this year! Can't wait for it! :D

The Friendship and The Langs

It was 9 years back when all of us, met at KIK Matriculation. Me and Nana in Biology Class, Kuyung,Lita,Jack in Physics Class and Jess the only one in Accounting Class.


Maybe being 'released' from secondary school, away from family makes us close to each other. Those were the old good days, that created the friendship that will  last forever.

 I am the only one who actually from different school, and district. Ha ha...All of them from Keningau and this is the Ranau girl :D..

 (Lita, Kuyung, Jess, Me, Jack)

 

(Kuyung,Me,Jack)

 In just 1 year, we become very close like sisters,  friend and family. We do almost everything together. Luckily we were not all in the same class...if not..hmmmm..

 

(Jess, Lita, Me, Jack)

I met Tracy, Ladyia and Olly  some years after that. 3 of them were  friends of the girls back to secondary school and we get along very well as well...

(Jack, Me, Lita, Jess, Kuyung)

And last Saturday our very own Jack finally get married with her high school boyfriend..he he..As the good forever friend, we give her all our 'Girl Power' on her big day! Its a real fun to celebrate our best girl friend's wedding, all girls with all the stupid jokes, teasing and laugh..

(Me, Kuyung, Tracy,Jack, Jess, Ladyia)

 

(Jack's Wedding)

 Nana married with 2 beautiful children, and same goes with Tracy. But yea, friendship never had limits. They are still the HOT MAMA..! :)

 

 (Me, Tracy, Jess, Lita, Ladyia)

Sometimes i really miss the those time, when we always have each other..but yea, we all now have our own life, family and responsibility. Even tho we can't spend times together, everyday, as before..it makes us more closer by heart.

To the Langs , look at us now, we all have our own career and life, and  lesser time to hang out. But in our heart, we always be the girl like we used to be..We grow up, become a woman, think and act like one. But only when we together (ONLY ah hehe) we can do stupid things, talk rubbish , mocking people and laugh out loud like we own this world..

4th Dec will be Lita's 'E' Day!! Yayyy...having the girls back to Keningau..see you there lovely Langseus!!

November says Hello..

As i can't stop the time from moving, i can only complain, it moving way too fast..

I remember when i was in my primary school, every year, i will wait for December to come..And it seems too long- the waiting. I have to go through 3 semesters, some 2 weeks school break and then only come the 'cuti panjang' long holiday. And every month is like a year..and a year like..uhm..10 years? ha ha..

Another month for Christmas, and there's no cuti panjang for me anymore. Sometimes i wonder, why didn't i take a long long holiday after i graduated, but started work to fast? Maybe i'm so energetic those days. Trying as quick as i can to start a career. Its been five years....and i never really have more than 2 weeks for my own...Its all about work work and work..

Here in Sabah, life is all about taking the opportunity. There's a lot of things i can do, and work for. I started join Tupperware to gain knowledge in business. And it never fail me, i did learn a lot when i join it. The money i earn from it not as much as the knowledge i gain.. Well, maybe yea, people will look at it as some MLM thingy, it is. But i am just not the kind who will see things as other people see..To be frank, i didn't really see the thing that i have to sale to gain profit..But i see something, the connection of other thing from it...

Maybe i did grow up, and my surviving skills become better, he he.But one thing i learn in life, is that, handwork is important. You can be smart, but without implementation, anything can be just a dream..You can be the mommy's girl, or the sweetheart, but you need to grow up-be a strong woman. Because you can't be a little girl forever.

Anyway, its just Nov 2010...I am young in my 20s! And i am enjoying my life! :)


I am so thankful to my late Grandma, who really taught me a lot about handwork.She's just a typical Dusun woman who will work so so and i mean it soooooooo hard, in everything she do...RIP Ina..

I just congratulate the wrong person..

To make things short..a friend told me last week that she already engaged. .Well, not thinking that she might finally meet someone else, I bumped to her recently ex-BF and congratulate him for the engagement. Silly me for not asking, but I swear, they were still together last month! And to engage with other person ? Hmmm…

I didn’t ask for detail, but yea things happen. Maybe they just not meant to be together? Or maybe there’s a change of heart, well not me to judge.

She said :  A man can be a fantastic boyfriend, but they can’t be a great husband. You can go to the club together, laughing, crying together, plan beautiful vacations..but in term of responsibility and long term planning, they sometimes failed. They can't lead the ship.  Marriages need a commitment, good planning, and a husband as the captain. He can be a lousy boyfriend, but a great husband.

I can't believe its come from her mouth, well to consider several things lah ..He he..But people grew up, and they get matured, they know what they need. So yea, she left her BF for 4 years and engaged with her friend for 2 years.Wish you all the happiness in the world friend!

Ain't no mountain high?

If you really want something to happen, will you climb the mountain  even how hard it is or just tell your dreams but do something else? Will you just wish some miracle happen, and didn't work hard for it? If you want something, will you REALLY do it with all your efforts, passion, determination, hard work, excitement and courage?

when you didn't..mean...your heart just for something else..so don't bother to dream, to talk..

Sometimes is upsetting to watch all that you've been working on all alone didn't work out. It is more upsetting when  someone that you really wish would understand didn't.
And when it happen, i loose faith, day by day...


And i learned that, you don't share your dream to anyone..until they really climb beside you, lift you up when you almost loose faith, grab your hands when you about to fall..if they didn't..its better to climb alone...

....and i only wish the feeling will not gone..till the day my crawling ended..at the top..

On my 20s

1. Scale back the credit cards.
2. Own a home -- or have a plan.
3. Have skills.
5.Travel
6. Saving for retirement day.
7. Know smart people.   
8.Growing up 
9. Adventurous.
10. Be young! :)


Its too late to think about all those important things after reaching 30s..So i better start now, rather than saying 'ah..how i wish i done that years back'.

As a woman, plan is important rite! :)

Diet plan that works for me..

Nutritional and Diet Plan Guidelines

1. Commit to consuming 4 - 6 small meals and snacks everyday. Ok ok..am doing it.
    
2. To succeed, you must plan ahead by packing your foods the night before. Thus, you should always have fresh and low-fat foods around. Oh yess..i really plan my food now! yep, by doing this, i don't have to go for any Martial Arts training just to get rid of those unwanted stuffs on me :)  
3. Keep it simple. Don't get too caught up on the specifics or your diet. Start by simply just counting calories.Of course..not too rush to loose weight..well just to make me wear my lovely dress again..:)..
    
4. Eat your foods slower. Am trying. And i think i become more like the slow eater mammals now
    
5. Make healthier food selections like fruits, vegetables, whole grain cereals, and beans, low-fat or nonfat dairy products, low fat meats, fish and skinless poultry.Yep, have to he he..
    
6. Avoid foods that are high in fat and calories. Oh i am away from those food. Oh btw, i have watched some martial arts DVD which is really good, teaching us on how to calculate the calories on food using martial arts technique.nahh..just kidding :P
    
7. Avoid foods that are high in sugars such as pastries, candy bars, pies and candy. No more..uh uh..
    
8. Use a variety of fruits and vegetables in your nutrition plan. Start by trying to eat 5 total vegetable and fruit servings every single day. Going to buy those juice maker soon, to drink vegetables  juice everyday..aww

There you go, my so called diet plan..ha ha..Well have to start slowly , and for long term. for me, yea, its all in your mind..and of course doing lots of exercise really help. i am not going to tell here how many kilos i have rejected from my body, he he, but yea, i am going to live a very healthy lifestyle.

Oh my friend jacklyn's wedding only 4 months away..I not going to be the fattest among the girls-in-turquoise!

 

I was in my XXS size..and will be agian.. :P

..

Facebook defriend

A friend told me today that a friend of her had removed her from his Facebook Friend List. And telling everyone that he had defriend her. (That's so eww rite! ha ha)
Without knowing what she had done, until he defriend her, and telling everyone, she just trying to analyze everything and trying to figure it out. Waw, look how social media can do nowadays..someone can show off his/her childish unmature behaviour just like that..eww..defriend in facebook showing that you hate the person..ha ha..Such a funny act..well especially for a man of course..(well woman tend to be emotional sometimes..hehehee). Oh and my friend told me : 'Oh i don't care anyway, he has nothing good to do with me' Well i am kind of agree with that..ha ha..


Maybe there's a lot of pro and cons in social media, and it contribute to some emotional feeling as well. i would say that it is strange enough for some people to use online social media to express their feelings on something. Like you hate her, you defriend her. Eww! Well unless that person really had do something that threaten you and your family maybe..then that 'friend' need to be deleted- Permanently.

I am interested with the term 'Wominnovation' in social media. In this century, we can even call social media as learning toys where kids nowadays learn a lot of things just from social media. Oh back to Wominnovation, it turns out that sociolinguists have found women to be innovators when it comes to communication, especially with new forms of languages. The shift from “ye” to “you” in 15th Century England? Women were behind it. Common phrases such as, “Like, ohmigod,” known as Valley Girl uptalk, were started by young women from California. And in the mid-20th century a group of young women from Oberwart, Austria shifted the primary language of a bilingual community from Hungarian to German, which was a powerful move in a community that had resisted the influence of the German language for close to 400 years.

And there you go..we have lots of new words created fro social media shotr form. And lots of younger generation even think that its the correct word. Cannot really blame them on that rite...

Well so..yea..back to my defriended friend..i don't know how to comment..just..Uhm..for me personally, i don't care, because think again...Hey its just a social media..a second life for some people..I have my own great life..have you? :D

P/S checking if someone defriend me on facebook..hmm

Sold: Story of Modern-day Slavery

I found this book while checking a bookstore at Timesquare last month..I was actually looking for a book, about a little girl being sold by her mother, but couldn't remember the title..haiya...i am very keen to read that book..Anyway, i asked the staff there to look for a book entitle SOLD and there's a little girl on the cover. He check on the system, and said that the book sold is under woman eductaion, something like thatla..then i said..ok la..just let me check that book first..

The book was awesome!

Zana Muhsen (born 1965) and her sister, Nadia (born 1966) were sisters of Yemeni and british origin who were born and brought up in Birmingham, England. They were sent to Yemen in 1980 on a purported holiday to meet the paternal side of their family, but sold unaware into marriage in by their father, Muthanna Muhsen, a Yemeni émigré.

Its a true story and i can't stop wondering, why a father can do such thing to his little girls! Looking at their photos taken by journalist, Eileen McDonald, i can imagine days that they have to go through everyday. Not even know their husband, far from loving them, being rape by their so called husband and getting so much impossible housework...omg.

My heart cry when the writer explained every details on all the days she have to live with. After 6 years she finally reunite with her mother, and with the help of so many people, she finally back to England.

After being reunited with her mother, Zana expressed unhappiness in England, and was quoted by McDonald, "I want to go back to Taiz [where she had lived in Yemen] and get a job. I will visit England when I want to. I am not sure I want to be a British woman anyway. I don't like the short skirts; it's disgusting."However, she remained in England and in 1992, wrote Sold: Story of Modern-day Slavery with the ghostwriter Andrew Crofts, describing her experiences.

A very sad story yet can learn so many things from it. Well, sometimes, we took things for granted, even when getting wooden toys for a birthday gift, we will just put it aside and never appreciate it. Do you know that Zana's child only use muds and dusts as a toy? Yep, she has a son, but she has to leave him there when she returned to England. The Yamen government forbid her to take her son with her to england.

Anti-Mugging "Skirt" Transforms Would-Be-Victim Into Soda Machine

The mind-blowingly quirky piece of clothing pictured above may not deliver actual sodas, but it just might deliver you from evil-doers intent on causing you harm.

The skirt looks like a pretty red dress under normal circumstances, but when flipped inside out over the wearer's head turns into a pretty dead-on soda machine disguise -- the perfect foil for some mugger or more violent criminal (at least in Japan, where street crime is rare).

When i first saw this, i was laughing..well that's cute but, can you really do it so fast, like in sudden when you sense something not wrong? :D. Oh well, hmm sometimes, to transform ourself into something else is a good self defense especially when you are dealing with those way stronger than you...Hmm good idea :)

But actually, these flippable fashion outfits are inspired by ancient Ninja stealth techniques -- apparently Ninja warriors would hide under black cloths at night to avoid enemies or surprise-attack them. And in Ninja invisibility is the art of blending in, becoming an insignificant part of our environment and disappearing within it..

Oh and eww, do you know how the hairy frog do their defense?

The hairy frog or “horror frog” intentionally breaks its own bones to turn out a wicked set of cat-like claws. Like Wolverwine, only slimy and a lot more terrifying because it’s a freaking frog. Scientists don’t know if the claw is able to retract once it pierces through the skin. According to New Scientist: “Trichobatrachus robustus actively breaks its own bones to produce claws that puncture their way out of the frog’s toe pads, probably when it is threatened.” Also, it is apparently hairy. This doesn’t stop Cameroon locals from spearing and roasting hairy frogs as a tasty snack.

Interesting aren't they? 

PEOPLE most beautiful woman

Those curls! The push-up bra! Can you believe it's been 20 years since Pretty Woman?

Julia Roberts, who began her career as “Pretty Woman,” is now the most beautiful person in the world, according to People magazine’s Most Beautiful Person issue released on Wednesday.

I watched her on 'Pretty woman' with Richard Gere, and she is awesomely beautiful!She is now a self-described working mom, Roberts lives in Taos, N.M., with husband Danny Moder, 41, and her three children: 5-year-old twins Hazel and Finn, and 2-year-old Henry. She’s just landed a new job as global ambassador for cosmetics giant Lancome and continues to work as an actress.Ah, she might be so beautiful even in draft printed paper or even using id card printer for photo.


Well PEOPLE magazine did not judge her by her look , but on everything. You might think lots of woman more beautiful than her, but it's not just the look bebe! :)

Beauty with no brain doesn't work. I love George Cloony quote on her "It has nothing to do with the way she looks.It has everything to do with who she is." Aww...

Why you must change your ideas and feelings about money

Money is a never ending topic to talk with..people need money, people waste money and people abuse money. myself...hmmm.. i am the type of person who will only use my money with something that really worth for it.ha ha...and i love spending my money for some Educational kids toys rather than buying expensive sun glass..:P

'Women : Earn and save'
'Girl       : Spend, spend , spend'


When i keep thinking about all the expenses, savings, bills i need to pay, i am used to be so stress out. But when you learn how to feel towards money, you will act and think differently. And money will just be there when you need them. Well, not saying that you don't have to do anything, but something like, there will be a way.

And be sincere with money. believe in 'What goes around comes around'. if you too stingy to spend money for others, maybe the money will be so reluctantly go nearby you? or maybe you spend money to others but you tell the whole world about it? Or maybe you go to some reunion, and just hoping someone will pay the bills because you don't have money?

Well things like that.

When people keep being mad with their always-don't-have-money, they failed to think. What have they done to make the opportunity come closer. 

What makes the difference in our feelings about money is how we choose to use our FREE-WILL in handling money and any other resource that's been given to us.
In other words - don't blame the resources because of how we have decided to use them. We create and are responsible for our own greed and mis-use of these resources... not the resources themselves. They are totally innocent of our decisions.
When we come to understand this, and put it in perspective, we begin to understand our relationship with this planet... with each other, with the universe and with money.

Yups, so be sincere , spend wisely and do not always think 'You pay for it, you have money, i don't have money' because, you already cursed yourself to have no money, and praying for the other person to have money. ha ha..Well think about it, you will realize how true it is.

Money Money money...Must be funny...:D..Nighty nite beautiful people :)

Why aren’t you rich yet?

I have been busy applying the law of attraction in my life lately, and it does bring so much positive things, more happiness,things achieved and i can say most things i listed down come easily to me.

Law of attraction is to practice the positive thinking in life. When I wanted things badly at the same time I had literally no idea how would I get it, just that I attracted what I wanted, and eventually one fine day, it was right in front of me.

But, personally, i do not totally believe that all the things i wanted; i get , because i have been practicing the Law of attraction. Above all, there is God. Keep that in mind :)

And i am now reading on Law of abundance which is really interesting (well, it never do you any harm to get some knowledge from other people knowledge :) ). Some points which is really interesting is on how you act towards money.

Why you still poor even with all your hard work (or is it really a 'hard work'? )

The first corollary of the Law of Abundance says that, "People become wealthy because they decide to become wealthy."

They become wealthy because they believe they have the ability to become wealthy. Because they believe this completely, they act accordingly. They consistently take the necessary actions that turn their beliefs into realities. And you can always tell what your beliefs really are by looking at your actions. There is no other way.

The second corollary of this law says: "People are poor because they have not yet decided to become rich."

I strongly believe that! Well, most people blame so many things for their money constraints, and they had been busying blaming others while others make their way to success ..:P. Ah, maybe Disney World Packages can be easily come to me after i finish reading this chapter!

Review Your Reasons
Why aren’t you rich already? Write down all the reasons you can think of. Go over your answers one by one with someone who knows you well and ask them for their opinion. You may be surprised to find that your reasons are mostly excuses that you have fallen in love with.

Whatever your reasons or excuses, you can now get rid of them. The world is full of hundreds and thousands of people who have had far more difficulties to overcome than you could ever imagine, and they’ve gone on to be successful anyway. So can you.

okay people, i got to finish this chapter! he he

Saturday Post

Uh hu! Two more weeks ey? Yep, i haven't figure out how am i going to pack all my stuffs back to Sabah..Keep thinking and thinking and fell asleep...Hehehehe :P

I already check some studio apartment nearby Lintas area, and found that properties in Sabah really expensive :(..Haih...I haven't figure out my car , and aishh...moving is really a headache, not to mention thousands bucks will kiss me goodbye for the house thingy, car thingy and lots more...

To keep myself positive will me my new studio apartment, which will be my new cute place..hehe...I already have my designs for it and hope it will be as nice as i imagine :P..well i might will end up stying in a Camping tents if my apartment hasn't ready yet right before i come back..ouch!

yayy, and i bought myself a book  entitle  Project Management for Information System from UK, and they already ship it! Well its very hard to find book in Sabah, plus its very expensive! I check the book at Kinokunya KLCC last Wednesday, and it cost me RM380! Urgh..I wonder why in Malaysia, book is really expensive..:(

OK its Saturday, and the sun finally shining! I'm gonna start with my Packing Project again!

The Impossible people?

Most people with personality disorders have what is sometimes referred to as "disorders of the self," because they often don’t believe that there is anything wrong with them. They think, “This is me,” or “This is the way I have always been,” and self-preservation makes them want to stay that way.

Mostly you will have to agree on everything, and well eventually, you will grow tired..and tired and give up. And it will always be your fault when you try to discuss or talk about something, which you really want to scream on their face or maybe learn some martial arts and do some exercise with them!


Here are some good guide to deal with impossible people:

Understand that it's not you, it's them. This can be surprisingly difficult, considering that impossible people have complete mastery of blaming skills. If you're dealing with an impossible person, you're probably being told on a regular basis that every conceivable thing is your fault. It isn't. As the saying goes, "It takes two to tango." Chances are, the more often they blame you, the more they themselves are actually at fault. Keep in mind that this is not to be used as a way to blame them. Blaming is what impossible people do, and they do it well. Instead, you are only facing the facts, for your own sake. That being said, here's a simple way to tell: If you accept responsibility for your own faults and resolve to improve yourself, it's probably not you. Remember, impossible people can do no wrong.

Defuse them. Stay calm, and don't spit angry words at them, whatever you do don't cry - this will only stimulate them to do more of the difficult behavior. Try ignoring them. Try looking away or starting another conversation, with a totally different topic. Find something you can agree with or praise them for. Do not, under any circumstances, join them in bashing, blaming or complaining. Do not bad talk to their face or to anyone else because then you are sinking down to their level. Add something positive. Redirect by focusing on something, anything, positive in the situation or in the conversation. Whatever you do just stay calm!

Be the opposite of them: a possible person. Live as an example of tolerance, patience, humility, and even some kindness (as difficult as that may be)--because these are all the things that the impossible person is not or not very good at. We are all influenced by the people in our environment--they don't have to be perfect all the time and neither do you. Give respect because you are human. If you don't receive respect, that's -sadly- their problem. Give understanding, and you get understanding. Ultimately this sort of behavior is probably the only thing that might possibly get through to them. They may not change in everything, but you can safely expect a change.


And yea...when you really tired..and giving up...because they are IMPOSSIBLE person!!


Understand that eventually, you and the impossible person will have to part ways. Whether they are a friend, a boss, a parent, even a spouse, the time to leave will eventually manifest. Maintaining a relationship with an impossible person is, literally, impossible. If you can't (or won't) make a physical departure immediately, make a mental one. In your mind, you've already left the relationship. The only thing left to do is wait for physical reality to reflect that fact.

Kitchen cleaning tips-my fav :)

Being the eldest daughter, i need to learn a lot of things on how to help my mom to do house work. Cleaning, laundry, babysit and some cooking. Well, my mom usually do the cooking, but usually i will be the one who have to clean the kitchen.

Hmm i think i learn how to cook when i was 11 ( I just wonder why my mom didn't buy fire extinguishers just to make sure i din't burn the whole kitchen!), and i learn how to take care of my younger sisters since i was 5..Urgh its really tough job being the eldest sister! he he..

Okay, there's some kitchen cleaning tips i learn from my mom and some from others, and sharing is caring people :)

1. To clean your microwave oven, mix together 2 Tbsp. of lemon juice or vinegar and 2 cups of water in a 4 cup glass microwave safe bowl. Microwave on HIGH for two to three minutes. Carefully remove the bowl and wipe the microwave with paper towels. Repeat as necessary.

2.To clean a blender, squirt a few drops of liquid soap into it, fill halfway with warm water, cover and blend away the mess. Rinse and repeat if necessary. You can also use this method for food processors.

3.Dry baking soda cleans chrome perfectly.

4.Once every 7-10 days, remove all the food from your refrigerator, wipe down the inside with warm soapy water, clean all the shelves and trays, then replace the food. As you work, check expiration dates and discard food past those dates. Place an open box of baking soda in the back of the fridge.

5.If plastic from the bread wrapper melts onto your toaster, use a little nail polish remover to get it off. Let the toaster cool before you try this.



He he..yep there you go...some tipsy on cleaning the kitchen. But personally, i really feel its important to clean the stove everytime you use it, because i hate to see lots of oils and food on the stove..disgusting!

because I am the Leo Woman..

In a meeting today someone asked me:

Why are you so hard to just accept what people suggest, instead of asking so many question and doubt everything?

Why are you never stop demanding and wanting more?



My answer : Because i am Leo woman.

MENTAL ATTITUDE:

• You are ambitious and commanding. You will like to be in positions where people look towards you for guidance and direction. A Leo woman has sufficient mental and emotional strength to don the mantle of a leader.
• You tend to perform better in a stressful situation more than in daily routine.
• A Leo woman is mentally very agile and has a very good grasp of the things. However she also has the tendency to while most of her time in pursuing activities of leisure and recreation.
• One of the negative things about you is your inability to work steadily for a long period of time
• You are so determine when it comes to finance, because you don't like to depend on others for money

Indeed i am. A bit commanding but that's because i hate when simple work cannot be done with lame excuse!
I am very annoying when i keep wanting more. But that's because, i always believe people can do more when they really do it.

Its wrong sometimes, but i really hate it when people just sit on their comfort zone, when they can actually take the challenge and do better in life.

And because i was born as Leo, and still governed by Leo, its hard for me to accept failure without trying harder. You fail, you get back on track and do it again until you succeed!


The Leo woman can show love, forgiveness and kindness to complete strangers or mere acquaintances and yet, may be critical and almost harsh to her loved ones if she feels they have failed her in some way.

It is not judging but some thinking took place :D

Few days back, taking my lunch at the office pantry, i can't help but overheard a group of my office mate chit chating..

They were having some argument on souvenir my boses brought back from a company trip for them. Ha ha it was really funny, but i was just listening. My boss actually just bought a bunch of snacks and chocolate from the trip and put in in the pantry for everyone. While the other boss gives all the staffs under his department beautiful souvenir. Ha ha..well what do they expect? a beautiful souvenir from the boss to them maybe..ha ha..

A : Kedekut la, ade ke beli snack jea..isk..
B : You tau tak, Lin(bukan nama sebenar ha ha) dapat sanggul rambut dari boss die..haaa..Bon (bukan nama sebenar :D) pun pula dapat bekas air cantik.
A : Iye?? Eeee tadi bos bagi chocolate tu i buat muke jea..Biar die tau..
C: Dulu pun pegi oversea beli makanan juga. beli la benda2 cantik..Selendang ke kain ke..
B : Pastu nak belanja pun susah. Kedekut la.
B : (Looking at me and said) You dapat ape?

Me : Err..Nothing...Why should the boss bought me something?


Ha ha..I was like, haihh...some people do have the mentality of 'Boss MUST give something when go oversea' or 'Boss MUST belanja makan'..Not that i am judging them, but, that was really funny ..their mentality..We called it pok-silap (when people always want some people to belanja makan or buy something)..



hmm macam macam...

I am tired

My body ache my mind feel like exploding. I feel overwhelmingly tired. Tired with everything and wish i could just sleep and forget the world. I am tired with my busy office time, my other job that always need me to do everything, i am tired with the whole house moving thing; packing-dusts-transportation-money-arrangement, i am tired with all cleaning, all washing all cooking...

I am tired when my boss asking me HOW? or WHY? I am tired when my colleague send me tons of papers need to read and confirm. I am tired with emails need me to do product explanation. My days? Its not something any human being love to have..

i am tired when someone compares me with other person-i wish i could just scream, i am tired when people expecting more but never work hard for it, i am tired when i have to think about everything..

I need some rest..