It somehow remind me on something...

Years and years back, when i was in my gorgeous secondary school, someone sang me this song, and i fell in love with it...

When I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained
But darlin' when I hold you
Don't you know I feel the same
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain
We've been through this such a long long time
Just tryin' to kill the pain
But lovers always come and lovers always go
An no one's really sure who's lettin' go today
Walking away
If we could take the time to lay it on the line
I could rest my head
Just knowin' that you were mine
All mine
So if you want to love me
then darlin' don't refrain
Or I'll just end up walkin'
In the cold November rain

And i still in love with the song..purely created..beautifully chanted...and sincerely delivered...Ah..sometimes song remind us with past, good or bad...Music is amazing :)

Similarities between Cats and Women

I read this somewhere..and its funny...:D

Cats do what they want;

They rarely listen to you;

They're totally unpredictable;

They whine when they are not happy;

When you want to play, they want to be alone;

When you want to be alone, they want to play;

They expect you to cater to their every whim;

They're moody;

They leave hair everywhere;

They drive you nuts and cost an arm and a leg;

Will annoy you incessantly when they want attention;

Will always bother you when you are about to fall asleep;

Try to hide the fact they poop.

My mom's cat, she called Fei mou ..

Promise Myself..

...To be so strong that nothing can disturb my peace of mind
To talk health, happiness, and prosperity to every person i meet
To make all my fiends feel that there's something in them
To look at the sunny side of everything and make my optimism come true
To think only the best, to work only for the best, and to expect only the best
To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others as i am about my own
To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future
To wear a cheerful countenance at all times and give every living creature i meet a smile
To give so much time to the improvement of myself that i have no time to criticize others
To be too large for worry too noble for anger, too strong for fear, and too happy to permit the presence of trouble
To think well of myself and to proclaim this fact to the world, not in loud words but in great deeds
To live in the faith that the whole world is on my side so long as i am true to the best that
is in me....

When everything just pushing me to the madness, i love those by D.Larson. Think positive and improving everyday :)... Thanks Yung for sharing this ..hugsss...

As a person who don't like to stay in my comfort zone, i love to challenge myself to be better and better everyday, to achieve something and do what it takes to get it..BUT...sometimes i do fall down and cry, and surrender with everything...A good friend, understanding families, a loving someone and this very encouraging words , could bring me back to life..Yea :)

.. its 12:50 midnite. Working round the clock to finish all my pending works...The air breeze unbelievably feel so good, strangely feels my dearest grandparents around..Maybe they are..To give me strength as they always do... :) ...Whispering...I love you...

Un angle enamorado

Spend all your time waiting for that second chance
For the break that will make it OK
There's always some reason to feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day

I need some distraction or a beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
Let me be empty and weightless
and maybe I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of the Angel
far away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room,
and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent revelrie

You're in the arms of the Angel;
may you find some comfort here
So tired of the straight line,
and everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
The storm keeps on twisting,
you keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack

It don't make no difference,
escaping one last time
It's easier to believe In this sweet madness,
oh this glorious sadness
That brings me to my knees

In the arms of the Angel far away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room,
and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent
revelrie

In the arms of the Angel;
may you find some comfort here
You're in the arms of the Angel;
may you find some comfort here.

A beautiful Poem, touching music...Meaningful deep meaning..Its a life...That we live in..

When I say... "I am a Christian"

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin'."
I'm whispering "I was lost,
Now I'm found and forgiven."

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
And need His strength to carry on.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And need God to clean my mess.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
But, God believes I am worth it.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner
Who received God's good grace, somehow!

By: Maya Angelou

The boulevard of our dream..

Nothing compares to the tale last night,
When the light we hold finally fading...
When the path of our blissful love, waning...
Leave a thousand questions
Unuttered, unanswered...
We leave it, alone...

We talk, we stray..
We put the time freezing, with the story of our unwordable tale..
We try to mend the path, that is broken
But we failed..

Should i adore the moment,
When we finally decide,
Or should i cry for the thousand memories
That will be buried deep inside our broken dreams...

Call me selfish, call me anything
Im tired to carry so many sad stories on my shoulder,
I am just too weak to carry the weight of the world,
How can i bear the feeling, to see the tears from the angel who brought me to this world,
How can i even smile when my heart aching painfully,
to let those beautiful hands hugging me, begging me to stay...

Tell me how can i choose the boulevard of our dreams,
when the other path,
They are crying in pain....

Jenny Jenny Please Don't Cry

Daddy said he loves his little Jenny so much,
And Jenny love him too, jenny missed him too..
Jenny pray that everyday daddy will kiss jenny goodnight,
Daddy will sing a lullaby for Jenny..
And tucked Jenny to bed..
But God never answer Jenn’s prayers..
Daddy still says he loved his little Jenny...

Daddy Daddy Daddy don’t go...
Daddy stare and hug jenny, he kissed and it feel so good,
So safe in Daddy’s arms..
But Daddy let go and walk away..Daddy didn’t look back..

Jenny wants Daddy
Jenny wants to bake a beautiful cake on Daddy’s birthday
Jenny ask Mommy to write a poem to Daddy
That ended ‘Jenny loves Daddy with all her heart..Daddy please stay’
Jenny saw a tears in Mommy’s eye..

20 years had passed, Jenny forget how to love Daddy
Maybe Jenny used without Daddy
Maybe Jenny love being with little Dala-Dala
And jenny erase Daddy from memory..

And one day, Daddy come home
Daddy said Daddy love his little Jenny
Daddy wants his little Jenny,
Jenny hug Daddy, jenny kissed Daddy
Jenny hates so much to bring back the memory
Jenny wants so bad to say Jenny love Daddy
But Jenny didn’t..Jenny walk away, jenny didn’t look back,
It hurt so much when Jenny didn’t say the words jenny wants to say badly..
Jenny loves Daddy....
But Jenny knows,
Daddy didn’t love Jenny alone,
He loves Brenda more, Daddy’s little angel...
Daddy leave, cause Daddy loves Brenda more...

Daddy Daddy Daddy, if only Jenny knows before..
Jenny wont spend 20 years trying to figure out why Daddy don’t love Jenny....

-tata-

A little bit of me

Monday 6 OCT 2008
11:00pm

Sometimes live challenged us in many ways. In relationship, in argument, in responsibilities and so on.. It does sometimes makes one's weak, yet sometimes it makes one's stronger.Who to decide is oneself, to move forward, or to blame the past. To make correct decision or to leave it to fate..I dont know.Or maybe its just a path that we need to go through in life...I cant judge nor can i suggest..Nah..im just in a mood of thinking..:)...lots of things suddenly visiting my peaceful minds..

I come across this poem by Christina E. Brown when i decided to do some research on my mind argument..And its very interesting tho..hmmm :)...Maybe im not a girl, but not yet a woman, so a little bit of both is me?..hmmm...ill keep thinking..:D

Girls vs. Women

Girls are insecure; Women are confident.
Girls dress trashy; Women dress classy.
Girls are students; Women are teachers.
Girls are listeners; Women are preachers.
Girls makes babies; Women raise babies.
Girls have sex; Women make love.
Girls are weak; Women are strong.
Girls fight; Women walk away.
Girls argue; Women speak.
Girls give in; Women compromise.
Girls envy. Women appreciate.
Girls give up. Women strive.
Girls look. Women see.
Girls take. Women give.
Girls follow; Women influence.

My Ina..

Poem by : Veron

Her Mother

Lately, lots of headlines on Mother Theresa having faith crisis before she died. Tv’s and newspapers keep giving their OWN critics.

For me it pretty wretched and cheap shot to attack someone who cannot defend herself. It’s a SHAMEFUL!

They can easily critics, and accuse her for everything..but can they do even a thing she did?
Im still Mother Theresa admirer and will always be. People can talk lots of things about her, but it depends on how we actually see the things, she did, she wrote and she said.

People are often unreasonable, illogical and self-centered;
Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse youof selfish, ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win somefalse friends and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building,someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness,they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.

The good you do today, people willforget tomorrow,
Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you've got ... anyway.

You see, in the final analysis, it isbetween you and God,
It never was between you and them anyway..

-by: Mother Theresa

What If...

Here I stand alone
With this weight upon my heart
And it will not go away
In my head I keep on looking back
Right back to the start
Wondering what it was that made you change

Well I triedBut I had to draw the line
And still this question keeps on spinning in my mind

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know

Many roads to take
Some to joy
Some to heart-ache
Anyone can lose their way
And if I said that we could turn it back
Right back to the start
Would you take the chance and make the change

Do you think how it would have been sometimes
Do you pray that I'd never left your side

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know

If only we could turn the hands of time
If I could take you back would you still be mine'
Cos I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keep on spinning in my mind

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
What if I had never walked away'
Cos I still love you more than I can say
If I'd stayedIf you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never knowWe'll never know

this heart that broke so long

This heart that broke so long

This heart that broke so long

These feet that never flagged

This faith that watched for star in vain,

Give gently to the dead

Hound cannot overtake the Hare

That fluttered panting, here

Nor any schoolboy rob the nest

Tenderness builded there.

By Emily Dickinson

a nite tale

The night remain unnaturally quiet
With a pale moon, shining through the trees
And I saw you smile,
Amazingly gorgeous, absolutely dazzling

Your eyes utter a story your mouth cannot speak,
Gracefully dazed by the beauty
God created in front of you..
And I thought those smile that day was mine,

I was too naïve
Not to see what’s behind the curtain,
Not to realize a beauty queen will win..

And it was then I realize,
You just take away my life,
With long pale sword ,
Thin enough to slip between a pair of ribs,
Yet stout enough to hack through
The hardest amour..

My head whipped around as I tried
To find my way
And watching you
Allowing yourself enjoying my pain

I locked myself in my own world since then
So afraid to open the door,

It was said “love until it hurt”
But I tell you..
It is not only hurting,
But it killing..


~tata~

Planning Ahead

I check my email this morning...My cousin send me this..Well, something good for me to start my life today...Lets share it..

Some people are planners.
They like thinking ahead and being prepared.
They get a high from being on top of things.

But some things are beyond planning.
And life doesn't always turn out as planned.

You don't plan for a broken heart.
You don't plan for a failed business venture.
You don't plan for an autistic child.
You don't plan for spinsterhood.
You don't plan for a lump in your breast.

You plan to be young forever.
You plan to climb the corporate ladder.
You plan to be rich and powerful.
You plan to be acclaimed and successful.
You plan to conquer the universe.
You plan to fall in love - and be loved forever.

You don't plan to be sad or hurt.
You don't plan to be broke or betrayed.
You don't plan to be alone in this world.
You don't plan to be shattered.

You plan to be happy.
Sometimes if you work hard enough, you can get what you want.
But most times, what you want and what you get are not the same.

We, mortals, plan.

But so does God in the heavens.

Sometimes, it is difficult to understand God's plans especially when
His plans are not in consonance with ours. Often, when God sends us
crisis, we turn to Him in anger. True, we cannot choose the cross
that God wishes us to carry, but we can carry that cross with
courage knowing that God will never abandon us nor send something we
cannot cope with.

Sometimes, God breaks our spirit to save our soul.
Sometimes, He breaks our heart to make us whole.
Sometimes, God sends us pain so we can be stronger.
Sometimes, God sends us failure so we can be humble.
Sometimes God sends us illness so we can take better
care of ourselves.
Sometimes, God takes everything away from us
so we can learn the value of everything He gave us.

Shall i dance again

Shall I dance again



Back to the days
I always love to dance,
I put on my dancing shoe,
And made my steps..

It always feels right
When the music unite with my heart,
Create beautiful steps,
For me to cry no more…


Then suddenly I fall,
My dancing floor betrayed me,
I cannot make another step

And it hurt,
So much no words can tell,
So much no tears can portray,

Slowly,
I kill the music inside me,
I don’t wanna dance again….

Should I dance again..
When I heard a music I wanna dance,
Shall I dance again,
When I know how much it hurt when I fall
Shall I dance again and give my dancing shoe one more try?


-tata-

A bliss

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.

Life is beauty, admire it.

Life is bliss, taste it.

Life is a dream, realize it.

Life is a challenge, meet it.

Life is a duty, complete it.

Life is a game, play it.

Life is costly, care for it.

Life is wealth, keep it.

Life is love, enjoy it.

Life is mystery, know it.

Life is a promise, fulfill it.

Life is sorrow, overcome it.

Life is a song, sing it.

Life is a struggle, accept it.

Life is tragedy, confront it.

Life is an adventure, dare it.

Life is luck, make it.

Life is too precious, do not destroy it.

Life is life, fight for it.

[Mother Theresa]

I ask God

I asked God to take away my pain.

God said, No.

It is not for me to take away, but for you to give it up.

I asked God to make my body perfect.

God said, No.

The spirit was whole, the body was only temporary.

I asked God to grant me patience.

God said, No.

Patience is a by-product of tribulations, it isn't granted, it is earned.

I asked God to give me happiness.

God said, No.

I give you blessings, Happiness is up to you.

I asked God to spare me pain.

God said, No.

Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares and brings you closer to me.

I asked God to make my spirit grow.

God said, No.

You must grow on your own, but I will prune you to make you fruitful.

I asked for all things that I might enjoy life.

God said, No.

I will give you life so that you may enjoy all things.

I ask God to help me LOVE others, as much as he loves me.

God said... Ahhhh, finally you have the idea!

[author : unknown]

Rhyme of Hum

A long journey we started
An empty mind blown inside
Leaving a trace, no one see
Embrace the greatness
Is out of reach

Though smiles lingering
Beating hardened

The darkness fade
I stood still
My heart stopped, my mind blocked
Thousand tears
Response to the memory..

Take me out
From the empty land I created
For I know
God love you more than I do

But friend..
The love we once shared
The laugh we always put
The friendship that promise no ending
Will be kept
Forth in my mind…

~tata~

Footprints

One night a man had a dream.

He dreamed he waswalking along the beach with the Lord.

Across thesky flashed scenes from his life.

For each scene, henoticed two sets

of footprints in the sand: onebelonging to him, and the other to the Lord.

Whenthe last scene of his life flashed before him,

helooked back at the footprints in the sand.

He noticed that many times along the path

of his lifethere was only one set of footprints.

He also noticedthat it happened at the very lowest

and saddesttimes in his life.

This really bothered him and hequestioned the Lord about it.

"Lord, You said thatonce I decided to follow you,

You'd walk with me allthe way.

But I have noticed that during the

mosttroublesome times in my life,

there is only one setof footprints.

I don't understand why when I needed

you most you would leave me."

The Lord replied,"My son, My precious child,

I love you and I wouldnever leave you.

During your times of trial andsuffering,

when you see only one set of footprints, itwas then that I Carried You."

Anyway

People are often unreasonable, illogical and self-centered;

Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind,People may accuse youof selfish, ulterior motives;

Be Kind anyway.

If you are successful,

you will win some false friends andsome true enemies;

Succeed anyway.

people may cheat you;

Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building,someone could destroy overnight;

Build anyway

If you find serenity and happiness,they may be jealous;

Be happy anyway.

The good you do today,people will often forget tomorrow;

Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have,and it may never be enough;

Give the world the best you've got anyway.

You see, in the final analysis.

it is between you and God;

It is never between you and them anyway.

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This is the Poem i always love from Mother Theresa...